Many a thank you is heard in the Rewards Department. Many complaints in the Complaint Department. God runs the Rewards Department and the Devil runs the Complaint Department....
Before and after the now, we are the eternal soul. In the now, we are the self; a temporary expression of the soul. The soul simply is, asking for nothing. The self is selfish, demanding all our attention. As the self denies the soul's existence, we lose touch with the soul. Ironically, the self will inevitably no longer exist and we will surely die if we lose our connection to the soul....
"What is the sound of one hand clapping?" Mu! (nothing). Sound, hand and clapping do not exist as independent things; as all things are interdependent; essentially one everchanging thing. Sound, hand and clapping are illusions our consciousness creates. They appear in foveal vision which is what consciousness carves out of the flow that is peripheral vision. The sound of one hand clapping is the sound of one hand clapping. It is what it is whatever it is....
How old is Buddha? Which Buddha are you asking about? How (in what way) is Buddha old? How old is Buddha at which point in Buddha's life? How old is Buddha now or at another time? Isn't Buddha now one day older than Buddha was yesterday? How old is Buddha where; on Earth or some place light years away? How can Buddha be different in age than the Everything of which the Buddha is just a facet? How can we know how old is Buddha as all things are forever changing, including the Buddha's age as we speak? Buddha is as old as Buddha is, whatever that is....